Breaking out of one's own life

When your world drives you crazy…

Then have the courage to break free.

Especially when you are on a spiritual or let's call it a self-discovery path and process, there may come a time when the world, the things out there, the people, events, views, opinions, beliefs, seem to drive you crazy.

Crazy in the sense that you get the feeling it's no longer your game, that you no longer fit in, regardless of what it is or where your focus lies. Maybe it's the way you're sold on how relationships are supposed to be. Maybe it's the way you're told we have to chase after money and that only millionaires are successful. Maybe it's the way you're told how you're supposed to be as a woman or a man.

Whatever. On your path of initiation, this time will inevitably come when you realize, "This isn't my game anymore!" And this time is often not easy. Because instead of celebrating ourselves for beginning to see beyond the illusion, we feel completely out of place—as if catapulted out of life, community, family, and our relationships. Yes, that's partly true.

An example might make this clearer. Imagine you've gathered with family and friends for a cozy game night. You're playing – fittingly – Monopoly. Everyone's there, including you. At first, you join in, perhaps even enthusiastically, dutifully following the rules and trying to advance, maybe even win. This can go on for many evenings (incarnations). But as the hours pass, as you play the game more often, you realize that it's not your game at all. That it's not how you want to spend your life, your precious time. You begin to "wake up" during the game. The problem: everyone else continues playing with great fervor, while you perhaps start asking aloud if they could perhaps play something else. Instead of stopping, the others will start trying to pull you back into the game, enticing you, perhaps even making promises, eventually threatening you, and finally, they might even try to ridicule you for thinking differently, for wanting to spend your time differently. You feel like you're catapulting yourself out of the group. And the time of loneliness and being alone begins.

Attention, this is important. Every community has a bubble like this. This isn't just about capitalist games. You can play the "light and love" game for a long time, only to discover that it's far from all light and love. Even spiritual communities can still be asleep, still unconscious, still trapped in illusion.

Everyone holds a carrot in front of your nose and shouts "Run!" – "Do it the way I say, and you'll eventually reach that carrot!" And each of us has a carrot we want to reach, and we're always searching for answers out there about how to get it. We try things out, we follow others, we try to be like them, all in the hope of reaching our desired carrot.

But on your path to awakening, there comes a point where you question the "carrot system," regardless of who installed it. You ask yourself about its meaning and whether you really want to keep chasing after it. This is a crucial moment for your soul's being—this is where we begin to awaken, from the game, from the illusion, from the routine, from the "prison."

That doesn't make it any easier. Sometimes you might get the impression that simply "keeping playing," "keeping sleeping," could make life easier. The problem is, once you're awake, you can't just forget everything and go back to playing. You might try, but it's colorless, empty, and pointless. The game is over.

But then what? What should come next? This is the moment of a new beginning, a fresh start.

This can happen to you in many "systems," for example, at work, in clubs, during volunteer work, at your children's school, in your circle of friends, etc. It can affect any area of life—that moment when you realize, feel, and understand: "The game is over!"

The time for farewell has come. It's not always easy; sometimes we don't understand at first why it has to be now. We loved working here before, we loved volunteering for the animals, children, nature, and so on. We had such wonderful times with our friends. Nostalgia, thoughts that things were so beautiful back then, are almost always a sure sign that it's time to move on, to initiate a change. If you're stuck in the past, you know that the present isn't what you'd like it to be. You're like a puzzle piece that suddenly doesn't fit anymore, even though it fit perfectly before.

That's actually a positive thing, as it shows that you've developed further, that you've gained more self-awareness, if only it didn't often feel so difficult, so sad, so lost at first, right?

New beginnings always involve, in one way or another, saying goodbye to something that has run its course. It's about time simply being over and us learning to let go. We're allowed to be sad about it, we're allowed to cry. We're allowed to give ourselves a time where we're left in emptiness. The old is over, the new isn't here yet. It's almost always a strange time, when you're not quite sure where you belong. What you're supposed to do now. Where are you going? How should things continue? Why is everything like this?

So that we can understand ourselves even better. So that we can spread our wings even further and see what else is possible. Let others continue playing their game and move on. Somewhere there are people, opportunities, situations that inspire you, that give you an impulse about how things should/can continue for you. Where you feel that this is your path now. It doesn't always have to be 100% clear right away.

Sometimes we just need to try things out. Go this way, go that way. We should allow ourselves to experiment much more. That's how we find out what we like and what we don't. If you've never painted, how will you know if you'll like it? If you've never been to Italy, how will you know if you'd want to live there or not? Something will call to you, and then try it out. And yes, you're allowed to find afterward that you don't like it. That's not a failure, but an insight. We're constantly gaining insights. This is how you expand your own world and discover what suits you and where you want to have more experiences.

Slowly, we are embarking on the path of a new beginning, opening horizons and expanding our horizons.

I wish you wonderful experiences, important insights, and fulfillment.

Your Jennifer

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